I remember reading my Bible in my earlier days. I felt low, depressed, and anxious and I needed peace. The Bible gave me strength, made me feel affirmed and loved. I always felt I wasn’t good enough on my own, and the Bible, God’s Word, gave me identity and purpose. The Bible said that my lack of perfection was enough for God. God still created me for a reason (1 Peter 2:9). It was revolutionary in a world that tries its hardest to convince you that you need to be everything, basically perfection and you might be worth something.
God’s word gave me consolation because I saw, even in my sin and pain, the truth. I saw that I had flesh, temptation, and that there was an enemy, who wants to kill, steal, and destroy( John 10:10). To know there were others in the world, whether I knew them or not, also in pain, took me out of my own narcissistic bubble. I truly felt I was the only person feeling the level of pain, hurt, and confusion I was feeling and the people around me were oblivious. I wanted to be seen for all my pain. I never stopped to think until I read the Bible, that we are all in pain, in need of God’s love, mercy, and the gift of Christ. (1 Peter 5:9)
As I read about people in the Bible, I saw myself in their brokenness. I have lied. I’ve had anger. I’ve struggled with lust. I’ve wished evil on someone. I’ve had trouble trusting God. I was normal.
The men/women of the Bible weren’t great, God used them to do great things. His requirement: trust and believe in Him. Faith.
He associated with outcasts and I felt like an outcast at times (John 8).
The Bible reminded me, I would fall, even after receiving salvation, but God’s mercy and gift of salvation continues to watch over me as long as I keep faith and believe Jesus is who He said He is and died for the sins of the world (Romans 6-8).
Reading the Bible, I knew I couldn’t be perfect. I would never be good enough, and that freed me. Do you know the comfort and joy of knowing you won’t be perfect, but Jesus still died for you to cover you? That realization saved my life.
I still do not want to dishonor God with my actions or thoughts. I don’t consider the gift of salvation a free for all for sin. I’m simply saying, thank You Father for taking the burden of perfection off of me and then giving me Your perfect love anyway.
You made me worthy, even when I wasn’t enough.
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