You work hard. You spend all of your money paying your bills, saving your money, taking care of business, but anything that costs more than you are used to spending on yourself, feels like a huge hit, even though God gave you the cushion.
You want to start businesses, build a media empire, inspire the world to show each and every person they matter and can make a difference. You’ll do it struggling if you have to, but you’re scared to really struggle. Your biggest fear? Being broke and not having the opportunity to exceed your potention because of it. So even when you don’t have to, you choose to struggle, so you can have a safety cushion of your bank account.
You find the logic in holding yourself back by saying, that’s just being smart. I’m just doing what I have to do.
How does this show up? It looks like you want to create content, so you do so on a barely working laptop, even when you can afford to buy a new one, the one that will take your content creation to the next level, but that costs more than rent.
What if something happens? What if you lose your job? A laptop, the laptop you need, costing more than your rent. Nah, I don’t know about that. That doesn’t even make sense.
I get it. You’re a woman who had to build herself up. You paved your own way for so long, that the only justification you have to taking care of business is paying bills and purchasing necessities. But, it’s also about priorities.
God didn’t give you high income and a savings account so that you didn’t invest in building your empire. Those three thousand dollars hurt right now, but will be years of creating quality content to help people. Those fabrics you’re buying, are the first pieces to your collection. That car? That car will allow you to drive to those auditions. You don’t plan on sitting in that office all day, so you have to act like. You have to invest in yourself, your dreams, and your goals. That’s a part of being responsible too.
God gave you that job so you can have resources to build and fund your businesses, your ideas, to start building your legacy. Mediocrity is not your calling.
If this ain’t you, then you can move on. But for my girls who didn’t grow up with their wants on a silver platter, I understand that guilt. Your mom and dad had just enough to take care of needs so you learned not to ask for the things that felt like too much. Those things that felt like too much could have even been singing lessons, dancing lessons, basketball, or summer camps. You carried it with you as an adult, no matter how much money you made. That guilt feels like being irresponsible for investing in something that doesn’t feel like a surefire return on investment. Just by investing in yourself, by being able to so more than your parents were able to, you’re breaking generational curses. You are all the investment you need!
So I know it feels like a lot, but count the blessings you have. It God gave it to you and told you to use it and invest in yourself, know the return on investment is going to be even greater than your mind can imagine. And you don’t have to see it, that’s what faith is all about!
With love!
This Girl's Worth 